almost

Never enough time to say what you want to say. Lips locked and head turned away.

Drill life is all review revue review revue review revue
Testing's over, finallllly, too easy. [:
love love love being rested.

butterfly wings help me fly(: havent felt like this in a while. days are good , nights get better.

gonna see my old friends and family this weekend, for matt's birthdayy !
missed them.

xoxocynthia

what a day today,
started off with the power gone , couldn't blowdry my hair, and all the lights turned off. the weather was hot and toasty.. went to the library afterschool to return books w/ sandra donna john bianca martin .. other people were there like jeffrey anne lourdes martin m amberly etcetc. i was giving therapy sessions and we got 'too loud' so we left after that. and i tripped up the stairs, fml. definitely "bella" ;] umm, went to pinkberry, ate a pretzel, and got my mother's day gift ! then off to guitar, which was fun as usual.

and i finished my homework, so i guess i'll write my mom's card
XOXOCYNTHIA

dreams

LATELY, i am lost. i am found. i am happy. i am tired. i am mistaken. i am rushed. i am confused. i am irritated. i am amazed. i am myself.

RECENTLY, i have been busy. i have been dancing. i have been slacking. i have been talking. i have been laughing. i have been thinking. i have been wondering. i have been hoping. i have been dreaming..

CURRENTLY, i feel satisfied. i feel full. i feel complicated. i feel hot. i feel strange. i feel excited. i feel scared. i feel tempted. i feel stupid. i feel grateful. i feel alive.

SUMMARY OF MY LIFE AS OF NOW.

miss me?

sorry ive been in the dance room.
JK but not really.
practice is crazy this week, preppin for nationals ! i am so excited ! roomies w/ yvonne again<3 today was a great practice , did the routine many times, cleaned, and learned some changes. all i hear in my head is "sharp! set! stretch! splits!" mmm, & english is stressing me out, i have no idea what i'm doing in that class. tomorrow will be a long day, and thursday leaving for anaheim. my sister and her friends have taken over my house, but it's nice to have them here :) happy birthday to patrick jayoma ! and one tree hill yesterday was intense, that's true love right there <3

xoxo cynthia

forever

on the dance floor .. (; ok amazingly enough i'm in a better mood today. i realize it's up to myself to raise my own spirits lol. ummmm , practice today was not a happy one though , fake smiles all around. i brought a blanket to school (reppin ucla) and i wish i could just fall asleep on it. webcammed w/ my bestie last night, it was fun! <3 he thinks he's stronger than me. ahh can't wait till MAYY, like that will make everything better. i love love stories i love cute things i love party dresses i love frozen yogurt i love rollercoasters i love rainbows i love karoake i love fairy wings i love sparkly things i love laughter i love clumsy people i love friends i love waterfalls i love looking at the stars i love candy i love dreaming .. i could go on forever.can't forget about all this good stuff!


edit; why is it when i think of you i only remember the good times, and i reminisce, but when i talk to you i remember what a dick you are!

had taco azteca in espanol todayyy(:
xoxo cynthia

choices

i hate decision-making. i thought about my future and i have no idea what direction i'm headed. also, after high school and college, it's just work. life seems so repetitive. i guess the little special moments add to life's excitement. i wish frustration and stupidity didn't exist. and broken hearts. my mind has a million things racing through, like what should i be doing? what am i doing wrong? or better, what am i doing right? why am i here? when do we ever know if it's worth it?

i need to try harder in school, i'm positive that i'm only living up to half my potential. the attitudes around me are starting to affect me. i find myself complaining more than i ever did. i need to rise above that.

needs wants wishes adjfkalsdjl. well, i had an ice cream cone today . and i'm learning 'happy ending' on the guitar. my teacher is hilarious. for that hour, i'm relaxed and having fun and i miss that feeling! music is so amazing. my sister is coming on sunday! i won't be the only child anymore, yay

xoxocynthia

too cool

for school tmro morniiiiin! late start ; gonna go at 10:30 hell yes (; took my benchmark today, my proposed class was "time management" ahah. practice afterschool. i'm really hungry right now! i have no homework ! happy birthday juno <3 i hate having the same routine, i need someone to mix it upppppppp!


1. I miss you we should talk more.. seriously can't let this fade ok? ily.
2. Just let it go.
3. We need to get down to business.. can't waste time.
4. You're so amazing.. I admire you.
5. I don't want to watch you get hurt again.

xoxo cynthia